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Behind The Ficus

by Carly Thomas

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1.
Empty tracks  A Train station  i follow my agnation to the past  budding flower growing up too fast  I can't go back But I can't go back I found a note tucked into my jacket  that you wrote maybe you’ve forgotten  I don’t know  it must have been that night that i left you in the snow  and i can't turn back i can't go back It said carry me  like a locket to your chest If it feels okay but the lions clawing at you can’t be tamed empty road hoping you'll pull over  laugh alone  crimson and clover what you've done I wrote you into every song I sung You had my back I can't go back So think of me  when you see something that’s romantic that’s all i need  that it was real and not imagined between you and me  tell me sweetly  Carry me like a locket on your chest I know you tried your best to feel okay But the lions clawing at you and they can't be tamed you know I'd be beside you but you flew away you flew away empty tracks a train station
2.
Show me a light aside from the white of these walls I need this give me something else ring all the bells  cast your ancient spells can you feel this hear me out Am I out of time am i losing sight  cause i don’t want to fight to breathe in  show me the night we’ll rock and roll pour the wine and let it flow say you’re happy just to hold me and then you cried out can i be the fire that you dance around? can i be the wire that you balance on?  What if we had it all  what if we just didn’t know how to heed this show me the night we'll rock and roll pour the wine and let it flow say you're happy just to hold me and you cry out can i be the fire that you dance around? can i be the wire that you balance on?  can i be the fire that you dance around? can i be the wire that you balance on?  show me a light aside from the white of these walls I need this give me something else ring all the bells cast your ancient spells can you feel this
3.
Stay With Me 04:53
Stay with me, talk me down  Patiently, until I turn this around Pull me close, is that ok? Tender and tightly , cause I’m floating away  And I don’t want to be rude, lying here covered in blue Under a sky full of stars I’m lying in your arms Wondering which one of us is the fool?  A tiny dream, a stolen smile And in between flash  of a desert isle   Where I was supposed to be , It takes a while We've got time I play along, kiss my hand  if nothing else , you think i can find my way in the dark I’m not frightened to admit that i’m tired I don’t wanna be rude , lying here thinking of you  Under a sky full of stars lying in her arms Wondering which one of us is the fool And I don’t wanna confuse you  and I don’t wanna lose you tonight Stay by my side if you don’t mind then i don’t mind I know it’s a mess, this heart in my chest I've been pushing you've been pulling me through And I can attest   That all I have left Is a broken idea of the truth  So please can you  Stay with me, talk me down  Patiently, until I turn this around Pull me close, is that ok? Tender and tightly , cause I’m floating away 
4.
I've got to try to bottle this up put you up on a shelf  let you out  when the hurricane came  oh my  it was a joke at the time just wanted that smile to last  for the rest of my life  so I  could look at you now  look at you now someday we'll all laugh at this how i was coming apart at the seams can’t believe you  turned your back on this impossible bottle floating out to the sea Time flies and it’s passing me by but i’m feeling as still  as the frame of your mind oh the pictures we take i took them all down  it was easier still if I had some around I could look at you now  look at you now someday we'll all laugh at this how i was coming apart at the seams can’t believe you  turned your back on this impossible bottle floating out to the sea someday we'll all laugh at this how i was coming apart at the seams can’t believe you  turned your back on this impossible bottle floating out to the sea someday we'll all laugh at this how i was coming apart at the seams can’t believe you  turned your back on this impossible bottle floating out to the sea I wish I could bottle you up put you up on a shelf let you down when the hurricane came oh my
5.
Carolina 04:30
I want you to show me  what I know you can’t explain walk with me through the ocean breeze stand with me on the edge On the border of a holy moment and i can’t look away I watch it burn like a wild fire on a torrid California day And it feels like on a cool night i could stand this close to the flame just to hear your voice twist sideways and tell me that you feel the same Carolina, can you stay? I’ve been afraid to light up,  and I don’t want to live that way  I’ve been hiding out for days if you don’t break this silence At least let me walk away say something I’m close to the shoreline so much I didn’t say  So it stays on my lips  like salt from the mist at the end of a crashing wave you could almost adore me but you stand too far away  shot and a miss you’re a sweet as a kiss at the end of a summer day  And it feels like on a warm night I could stand this close to the wave just to feel your hand in mine before you run away  Carolina, can you stay? I’ve been afraid to dive in  and I don’t want to live that way I’ve been hiding out for days if you don’t break this silence at least let me wash away So say something (Bridge) What do you want to say? Carolina, can you stay? I’ve been afraid to light up and I don’t want to live that way I’ve been hiding out for days if you don’t break this silence at least let me walk away say something
6.
On this cold and windy morning I was hoping we could walk into the rain Dance around the notion that we both know we can always start again Feels like we forgotten all the things we had in common, everything we said Now that it’s all over all I wanna do is hold you for a million years I was on a rooftop, Singing folk songs Wondering how you got away If I’m lucky , maybe someday You’ll come back this way Drifting through the afternoon I saw someone who looks like youI almost waved But you don’t live here by the ocean, I’m trying to throw you like a stone watch you Skip away I think if you were here we’d have a laugh if you were here I’d feel home again Everything is changing and I feel like a stranger to every place I’ve ever been Was it worth it? Does it hurt yet? Do you still feel the same If I’m lucky, maybe someday I’ll forget your name I was on a rooftop , feeling fucked up I was about to lose my head If I’m lucky maybe someday I’ll do it all again On this cold and windy morning I was hoping we could walk into the rain
7.
Front Row 03:16
I met you in the front row  never felt this close before Everything was moving so slow my heart beating four on the flour  i was looking at you looking above won’t you call me love  I’m waiting in the front row  to fall in love  I’ve been waiting all night feels like I'm the only one when you call me love I’ve been chasing the starlight  it’s taking control of us  Dreaming of the west coast  Even LA feels like home  thought i saw you in the cool glow  time is fleeting, I feel you leaving I see you in the crowd when music is loud I need you right now  I’ll be waiting in the front row I know you’ll come around  I’ve been waiting all night Feels like I'm the only one  when you call me love    I’ve been chasing the starlight  it’s taking control of us  call me love Hold this moment, before it’s gone  come close to me  Hold this moment before it’s gone come close to me  can you feel my heart beat? 
8.
September 03:50
It was September the leaves were changing hues coffee on the  kitchen counter but the couch was cut in two And I can't remember what you said before you left I could only feel my chest I know you felt it too I was hoping that  you were hiding behind the ficus  across the room you could have told me you were lying when you said you be home soon i'm still looking for you So i took off Away from the city and the skyline leave it all behind find another open road cause you want a new life I wanted a comrade did it feel so bad that you had to let me go? I keep driving long distance highways and then I lie awake cause I only dream of you I collect the miles Stranger's smiles hold them tightly to carry me through but they were nothing like you l Give me peace, please release me I was hoping you were hiding behind the ficus across the room you could have told me you were lying when you said you'd be home soon i'm still looking for you
9.
I missed the boat Haven’t seen this place before but it feels like home  even though my feet are soaked from thinking I could chase the undertow  and catch your ghost  You didn’t stop to rush the dock or change the locks or even talk this over love, I told ya  I got caught in all the knots and ticking clocks we left at home to keep us sober  Where’d you go?  Feet in the sand I can see you miles away  you wave your hand remember when you pulled me up I was thinking I could fly  and never fall born to sprawl  There isn’t time to wonder why or analyze  do you suppose we’ll never know? Holding hope I’d see your eyes  Just one more time  Something told ya  leave it alone Where’d you go? 
10.
I drove down through West Virginia where i always thought we'd go and the clouds were pointing fingers to the old and winding roads I pulled over by the river watched the water flow and i hoped  That you would see how far i’ve come how far i’ll go i don’t need anything more open the door take me down to the river it’ll hold you just for a minute then let you go  Last night in the city cause that’s where the wind had blown and i caught a tiny sliver of a life i used to love the smell of sweat and cigarettes in a crowded concert hall  wanted to call  so you would see how far i’ve come how far i’ll go i don’t need  anything more open the door   take me back to the river it’ll hold you  just for a minute then let you go 
11.
Empty Room 05:02
Take the bed, the mattress and the frame Take the shelves it’s all the same  Every picture, every frame Take it all away  Take the lamp  The coffee table, the tv stand  Take the soft light that I loved you in  Might as well take all the oxygen Right out of the room  (Chorus) You don’t want to make a scene You wanna cut things clean  Pack all your things, (time to loom)  You wanna cut the chord I don’t want to beg for more What am i to do With all this empty room?  Take the books I never read  The notes in the margins, clothes in the closet I don’t need the mirror on the wall  Cause I lost my reflection Needed your attention  Tell me what I want to hear  Take the ceiling Cause the walls are caving in  And i need a sky to fly into Before the floorboards finally give And while your at it take the oceans Cause i can’t bare the notion Of ever diving in again  You don’t want to make a scene I don’t wanna make believe You’re coming home soon You wanna cut the chord I don’t wanna beg for more But what have I to lose Just an empty room

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Behind The Ficus  is a candid and personal glimpse of an artist in bloom. Navigating through the gritty undertones of self doubt and the messiness of heartache, we are left with a beautifully framed map of life's journey through the things that make us human. Love, loss, grief, and growth. Carly Thomas paints a beautiful and vulnerable picture through her words and music in this brave and personal collection. 
"It was like taking a flashlight and looking for who I was in the dark", says the artist explaining one insight into the album and the
quirky  title. "I wanted to also find some forms of subtle humour in the process, because like music, laughter also has this incredible healing power.".
The collection of songs is a lyrical evolution for Carly as well. While she has always been known as an evocative and insightful writer, her new songs offer both an intense vulnerability and immediate resonance. They reveal an evolved and seasoned artist who has come to grips with what she wants to say.  As she sings on Carolina, “I’ve been afraid to light up, and I don’t want to live that way.”
Behind The Ficus is Carly laid emotionally bare.  At times poignant and poetic and at times even whimsical, the album is both a confession and an encouragement to listeners to face and reveal their own truth.

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released August 27, 2021

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Carly Thomas London, Ontario

London based Indie artist, Carly Thomas, is a welcome change from the typical. A soulful writer with a voice layered with truthfulness, she has that something which makes folk-ish music interesting and intelligent.

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